Friday, January 30, 2009

:)

MAGICAL REALISM! I love it! Even though we just started learning about it. It was fascinating in Spanish last year and now I'm really happy because now we can learn it in ENGLISH and I can actually understand! So yay.

On the flip side, ap chem is a horror house. I got a C in it. :( and it counts as 2 C's on the transcript. So now I really need an A in it. Actually, I need an A in everything for the two other years in high school. And the Research project is killing me. I have no idea what to do and its due ina month that might seem like a long time but I need thirty lab hours and I have and hour and a half. And I don't know what to do. %*(&.

And I'm not neurotic. Not at all. I'm just alternately happy and stressed. But I'm not bipolar either. I dunno what I am. Gosh. This isn't helping me. What I need, is to create a new mast head. Then research. Yes, that is what I shall do. :)

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I think I'd break if I had to experience true despair. This is quite bad enough, thank you. I know that this is probably pathetic. That I can't even survive AP Chem when others have bounced back from things that are much worse. 4:08 PM

Erg
Tired
Words swimming.
Head Swimming.
My facebook status reads "Deanna is piffle tot kidfertinglegoshimcrud."
I have no idea what that means
And no, this is not the poem that I previously promised 4:30 PM

Head hurts. Why are there so many stupid Chem problems?? I had a nightmare once that I took a printout from wikipedia to my English class, and I had to hide it, or the teacher would be really mad. 4:44 PM

Neighbors came. Can't concentrate. Shoot. 5:28 PM

TAlked to Michael for the first time in a long time. It was nice. 5:38 PM

Mom and neighbor. Still talking. Godd. I can't pay attention gosh ekjhsekjraseljrkljsehr. 5:51 PM
I have a headache. Too much. Maybe poem later. Lunch now.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Chinese New Year

It's Chinese New Year, and according to the Yahoo! horoscopes, the Roosters are due for a good year:
Get ready for an outstanding year. Aside from the Snake, the Rooster has the best prospects in the year of the Ox. This is the kind of year you have been waiting for, as everything seems to go your way. You have been diligently working towards some long term goals that finally come together this year. Your relations are felt at new levels, as you find a sense of satisfaction that you may not have experienced in a long time. Things you may have thought not possible will become a reality for you in this positive year.
Rooster Rating
72% (10 favorable and 2 neutral months)
Rooster Career
Determination and diligence are two key aspects that put the Rooster over the top this year. 2009 is a year that you should promote yourself: Your ideas and your talents will be highly regarded and you will be recognized for past and present efforts. Give it your best this year and seize any opportunity that presents itself. This year will certainly be a landmark for years to come, as you will remember it as one of your most productive times in your life.
Rooster Relationships
Domestic matters will fare well for the Rooster this year. You will find comfort in the support and encouragement of family members and friends alike. Seek advice from your seniors, as they may provide information that opens doors to areas that are not known. The social life for the Rooster is a busy schedule. You will enjoy the company of others in many social functions and parties. Romance is highly favorable for the unattached Rooster, so flaunt your feathers.
Rooster Health
Health issues are minor for the Rooster this year. Though exercise and diet are not an issue, you may have a problem maintaining the discipline of a steady routine. Take the time to get the exercise you need and everything should work out fine for you. Being somewhat of a risk taker, you may want to try something new that holds your interests. Consider surfing or parasailing to indulge your fancy.
Rooster Wealth
This a great year financially for the Rooster. If you have any available funds, you may want to reinvest it in your work. This could prove to be highly favorable and you will reap the benefits in your return. One key issue is your spending habits. Make sure you don't spend the money before it is in the bank or this could pose a problem with your budget. Receive professional advice for any large investments in areas that you are unfamiliar.


So that's good. Maybe I can raise my GPA or something. So right now I'm doing a lab. It wasn't a hands on lab, because apparently nitrobenzene is really dangerous or whatever. I don't see why nitrobenzene is too dangerous but carcinogens (Potassium Dichromate) aren't??? And how come we can mix two compounds (Potassium Dichromate and Toluene) that have the potential to explode? What's so darn great about nitrobenzene. Well, we had too look up the safety for working with nitrobenzene (even though we wouldn't work with it) and I had to laugh. At the disconnected tone that the material safety sheet (http://www.palomar.edu/ehs/Chemistry%20MSDS/NITROBENZENE.pdf) had.
SECTION 4. - - - - - - - - - - FIRST-AID MEASURES- - - - - - - - - - -
IN CASE OF CONTACT, IMMEDIATELY FLUSH EYES OR SKIN WITH COPIOUS
AMOUNTS OF WATER FOR AT LEAST 15 MINUTES WHILE REMOVING CONTAMINATED
CLOTHING AND SHOES.
IF INHALED, REMOVE TO FRESH AIR. IF NOT BREATHING GIVE ARTIFICIAL
RESPIRATION. IF BREATHING IS DIFFICULT, GIVE OXYGEN.
IF SWALLOWED, WASH OUT MOUTH WITH WATER PROVIDED PERSON IS CONSCIOUS.
CALL A PHYSICIAN IMMEDIATELY.
WASH CONTAMINATED CLOTHING BEFORE REUSE.

"If swallowed, wash out mouth with water provided person is conscious" I love the nonchalant way that is stated. I don't know why its so funny to me, but it just is.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Hm...

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Memory

I feel pathetic. I realize how little that I remember of middle school and how much I wish I could remember more.

Same goes for Chemistry.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

I can hear my watch ticking. It's both annoying and soothing. I also smell my T.V. breakfast. It's done cooking in the microwave. I'll be back....

[One hour and 44 minutes later...]

I feel sick. I kind of wish I were sick, too. Because then I wouldn't have to do all this work. I wouldn't have to go play golf tommorrow, and monday. I wouldn't have to take finals. Wouldn't it be better to just sleep and dream, and never wake up? So tired.

I just read Fever 1793. It's an old book, but its a good one. It ends full of hope. So does this article, actually. http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/inauguration_rdp

I feel like drawing and writing for some reason..but I always have homework.....

Friday, January 9, 2009

An Omniscient Smile in the Sky

I'm supposed to be doing homework right now. Then again, I'm always going to be burdened with homework and any time that I take to read or eat or shower or walk or watch TV consequently counts as wasted homework time. But it's friday, I'm exhausted, so I really don't care if I'm wasting time right now.

I suppose there are worse ways to waste my time. But after that rant about homework, I'm really not sure what to type. Blogging? I don't enjoy the prospect of friends or strangers reading about my feelings. But Gadi (who is probably going to be the only one reading this) wanted me to "make a blog so we can be blog friends." So here's the blog. I'll probably think of a million things to say after I hit "publish post".